The Flip Side of Current Events

The flip side of current events happening right now ---

I am still hurting but moving on to rosy pastures, where pink-colored glasses are available and real.  Fucktard has been a thousand times nastier to me than the usual.  My only consolation is that  with that, I do not feel that I wasted my thousands of bucks paying my lawyer for annulment.

Yes, I intend to move on, and I have never felt so liberated and free.  But I am still living in the same place with him as  I have no means to go and move elsewhere.  My children are still with me, although the eldest is already an adult, the youngest is still a minor as of this writing and I have to wait a couple more years before I could totally let her stand and decide on her own.

I only want the best for my children.  Only, I cannot give them a full and complete family.  No one deserves to be in a rut.  I do not wish to have an annulled marriage.  But certain things pushed me to do so, and  I realized that there is a word called "happiness" outside the confines of this house.

I have been in this loveless marriage a very long time.  I waited for the children to grow up.  I saved a lot of money because annulment is very very expensive, and only a few privileged individuals can afford it.  I consider myself one of them. Yes, thankfully, I am able to.  But I am not wealthy.  I just know where to put my hard-earned money into. 

Many women like me in my home country are trapped in a loveless marriage like mine.  I feel sorry for them because we are the only country in the world that does not have Divorce.  The Catholic church is a very powerful force in my home country and their voice is The Voice.  No actual separation of church and state in here, and they dictate a whole damn lot.

I consider myself included in that small percentage of women who can pay for an annulment.  But that doesn't make it easy for us to do so.  For one, the justice system in this country takes a slow and long lime to finish.  It takes 2-3 years or even more than that for one's petition to come down.  And if the spouse contests, then you are on to an ever longer battle. :(